Monday, April 19, 2010

Getting off my Butt

I have decided to get off my butt.  Two reasons really, mentally and physically.  I have had a downward spiral in my physical well being since being laid up for 6 weeks and then scared to lift anything heavier than my laptop for a few more weeks than that.  Then it was too chicken to start back at the gym lest I tear or pop something.  I have no excuses now.  I have been cleared by my plastic and my onc to get back to the gym.  So I joined a little gym up the street with John.  We've been twice in three weeks :)  Need to work on that.  I have also rededicated myself to tri training.  I enjoyed biking 9 years ago when I first got in to tri's.  Swimming for me is a given.  So I am joining a tri training group, downloaded a Couch to 5K app, and have almost signed up for my first sprint tri in May.
Mentally I need this.  I need a season of me time.  I'm not gonna lie, I'm in a dark place right now.  I need to get out of it.  Part of it is what I have been through, not sure I ever fully processed what happened to me and I am now suffering for laughing my way through the pain.  Homeschooling and parenting are overwhelming right now.  Luckily the kids have switched to auto pilot and are keeping pace while I do what I can.  John has stepped in also to ease my load.  So for a season (hopefully a short one) I need to focus more on me.  Is this selfish?  Yes in the short term, no for long term.  I need this.  It isn't a want it is a need.  I need to be healthy both physically and mentally and I have neither right now.  I am on the road to recovery.......

6 comments:

BETHANY said...

A girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do. Glad you're doing what you need!

Jenn said...

So we will both be off our butts! Good for us both.

Traci said...

Hey Jen how bout you come kickbox my butt if I start slacking? :)
Bethany thanks for the encouragement.

Peg said...

You are not being selfish. If you don't take good care of yourself you can't take care of anyone else. You rock honey.

jmquilts said...

No, this isn't selfish. You need to take care of you and I'm proud of you for doing this!! :)

The Hayes Zoo said...

I *totally* get this.

Self-care is not a bad thing. Selfish care is. They are NOT the same.

Blessings....